Crying for Krishna

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nayanam galad-ashru-dharaya
vadanam gadgada-ruddhaya gira
pulakair nichitam vapuh kada
tava nama-grahane bhavishyati

O my Lord, when will my eyes be decorated with tears of love flowing constantly when I chant Your holy name? When will my voice choke up, and when will the hairs of my body stand on end at the recitation of Your name?

Sri Sachinandana Gaurahari, in the sixth verse of his Sri Shikshashtakam, is telling us about the mood that one should have while chanting the holy names of the Lord. The pure devotees of the Lord, as well as Sri Chaitanya Mahaprabhu, who is the Supreme Personality of Godhead himself but appeared as a devotees of the Lord to preach the Sankirtan movement, although possessing the deepest love for Vrajaraj-suta Shyamsundar characterised with intense possessiveness, present themselves as extremely humble and destitute, crying out in separation from the Lord, even though they are eternally engaged in internal service to the lotus feet of Sri Radha Krishna, just in order to set an example for the Sadhakas, of how they should feel separation and cry out for their worshipable Lord Govinda. If one is truly desirous of attaining the lotus feet of Gopinath, one must certainly cry out in separation from the lord, and if one is not able to do that, one should cry due to the great misfortune of not possessing such love for the Lord, and pray intensely to Sri Guru, so that by the grace of the Spiritual master such love may arise in the heart of the Sadhaka, thus dispelling all material attachments and making the heart melt with intense attachment for the lotus feet of Sri Hari. When such deep loving sentiments appear in the heart of the devotee, the eyes shall automatically be decorated with tears of love, the voice shall choke up and the hairs on the body shall stand on end. Till that exalted stage can be achieved, one should remember this verse and while praying to the Lord, cry out, ‘When shall that day be mine?’